stop him
my love story
well i guess im gonna start this off saying i dont hate shaniah or dislike her quite frankly i loved her and im getting over it. so if you think this is to start drama it isnt, its simply how i feel and i dont think anyone can take that from me. so im going to explain our story of why we broke up….more or less. ill start back in 2010-2011 when i was a minor 9er. shaniah met this guy Rory who she liked and they got along. that was fine with me, because she has lots of guy friends (mostly) and its normal for guys to talk to her and shit. so one day she asks if she could go to his house after school, i was a bit iffy but i said yes when she said she was bring kaite reaburn with her. so a couple weeks past that month and she went to his house more and more, and i felt her drifting off more and more (she proboly felt me drifting off too). One day i got a text message from katie saying that shaniah no longer wants to be with me and shes in love with rory, heartbroken i ran to the bathroom and puked, dont know why tho lol. so of course i felt like there was nothing i could do but try to act like i didnt care or anything.if you ask her she will proboly tell you i was an asshole for a couple months, talking about banging girls and what not. when in reality i would go home and watch t.v untill dark everyday and text people. honslty i cant remember that much cuz i tryed so hard to forget it but it still crosses my mind every mow and agian. anyway after a couple of months she said Rorys not what she is looking for (im being palite way) and she wanted me back. as i was going threw girls i didnt even really know feeling sorta helpless I ignored her. One day missing her alot i get a text asking to go down to the old bridge and talk too her, she tells me that she misses me and out of impulse i grab her and kiss her crying telling her how much i missed her (while going out with a girl i dont know lol). so stuff betwen then and the summer got really screwed up and confusing so im gonna skip it but i think i was being a dick. anyway the first of summer rolls around and i find myself missing shaniah more and more. me and her had a “thing” (threw the really screw up part, dont need to go into detail) so i asked her back out even tho she left me for an other guy i felt like i loved her enough to get passed that.so i did, i moved on and things started to get slowly better. i would stay up all night during the summer just to go to shainahs house. it was awsome js (y). then school came back around, going to a new school i felt like we could start over. so the first couple of days go by in school and its going good. then the week after shaniah met an other guy named ryan, everyone said he was the most trust worthy guy they know so i didnt mind them talking. but of course once agian shaniah proved me wrong. i went to her granparents house (her house) and seen a text message from ryan saying: “I miss you babe, i love you ;)” but of course because i trusted her and loved her soo much that i didnt care as long as she didnt talk to him anymore like she said she would. the next day at school i was walking to class and seen her with him so later that monday night i broke up with her knowing there was nothing i could do from loosing her, so now i sit here 2 months later on a sunday listing to the marians trench sound track (yes it means something). we had alot of fight but we would always say sorry and she would always say “we will work on it” when she never did, only i tryed and i think thats when i relized that she was slipping away from me and she had no intent to hold on. there is so much more i didnt say, and wont because thats betwen me and her (and proboly who ever she dates).
